My Wish~

I'm kinda exhausted today, will talk about my trip to Bath when I update my blog the next time.

All I want for my birthday wish is I wanna spend my birthday with my best buddy-bro.

That's all I want.

Depression

Quote of The Day: Depression is close to me, but suicide hasn't been...

Broken Friendship

Are you really gone?

As my day draws out, I find myself thinking about you.

I miss you, my brother. And I wish you were by my side.

You are like a real brother to me and I hate not having you here.

Never being able to see you or talk to you would be my greatest fear.

I regret for what I did to you and I'm sorry, brother.

Brother, will we able to laugh again?

We had so much fun together but thinking of it now makes me sad.

Do you think that I will ever get a chance to prove myself that I'll change and be your good brother again?

You probably think that I'm a bad person and I wish that wasn't true.

I wish that you will understand how much I care about this friendship.

I wish things were different and not being able to talk to you doesn't seem fair.

I miss our silly jokes, I miss our bond of trust.

I hate not being able to talk to you and I don't want to have to adjust my life.

I wish I had the opportunity to sit and talk with you about our problems.

I'm not a bad person.

It's heartbroken to think about our broken friendship everyday.

You are a great brother and I have so much respect for you.

I wish we can still laugh and joke like we used to be.

I hope we will always be best friends & brothers.

Quote of The Day: The disappointment of losing a best friend is huge.

~Life in London~

It's been awhile I last updated my blog... I guess I should talk about my life in London...

This is my ugly hair after coming to London...

Steamboat with Chong Hor, Bo Yuan & Kee Aik in London...

New t-shirts & shoes that I bought in London~

Limited Edition Royal Wedding Oyster Card...

A beautiful view in Hyde Park~

A beautiful night view in London!

Classic Hot Chocolate with Whipped Cream & Chocolate from Starbucks~ Yum~

Homemade Aglio Olio...

 Cheese Baked Pasta~~

Lamb Chop with Garlic Bread, Broccoli, Potatoes, Scallops & Oyster Mushrooms~

 Pork Kebab with Asparagus, Potatoes, Garlic Bread & Mushrooms~

Grilled Salmon with Potatoes, Squids, Oyster Mushrooms & Scallops~

I guess that's about it for now...

Quote of The Day: You can't do anything about the length of your life, but you can do something about its width and depth.

The Past...

I know I hurt you so badly once but I really didn't mean to, I'm sorry...

I do feel bad, guilty and heartbroken when I saw all those tweets today...

You felt that way because of me and you had me thinking as well, why didn't I die during my car accident?

If I was dead, maybe you wouldn't be hurting so badly...

*Touch Wood*

I always think of my past when I'm in the bus or underground tube...

And I always say to myself, how I wish I can turn back time or change the past...

I didn't want my life to be like that... But the past is the past...

I have to move on in my life so I can get a better future...

I can move on in anything in my life but one thing I can't is that I can't forget about you...

I still do love you...

I still do miss you...

Even though we're 10576 miles apart...

Just wanna say, I'm sorry...

Quote of The Day: Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future...

The Feeling of Guilt & Lonely...

We have been best friends but I don't know about it now.

To be honest, I'm sorry that I didn't appreciate our friendship properly.

When back in M'sia, you used to be there when I need you and I didn't be there for you when you need me.

I feel so bad and guilty. And I feel lonely after I came to London.

Now I'm hoping to make things right. Tmr I gonna go get my part-time job.

And I made a promise to myself that I'll buy you dinner when I got my first salary.

Other than that, I'll definitely buy some decoration things for your new house.

And also buy you a BIRTHDAY present even though I know it's too late.

I really wanna make it up to you. And I promise that I'll put more effort into our FRIENDSHIP.

And you know what, my brother, I put everything aside already.

My family and studies are now my first priority.

I did take your advice.

I have been thinking so much when I stepped into UK.

I know how I treated you back in M'sia and I feel so bad.

When I was on my way back to my hostel, I was thinking about our friendship.

I really can't afford to lose a good BROTHER like you.

Once again, I'm sorry.

Quote of The Day: True friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until it's lost...